alright now it’s time for you to tell your story
tell your truth
tell me everything you’ve been holding onto
it’s your turn to let it out
don’t hold back.
well I guess i’ve been meaning to say
that it’s been there all along
the truth and the future was with us all along
there was no questioning it would be this way
but we still can’t believe it.
no one was ever meant to roller skate in a buffalo herd
but roger miller was wrong
he was wrong.
and of all the things you do today I hope you tell your grandma you love her
and if you can’t I hope you write her a note.
she might never read it but she will know
and so will you.
and the most important part of all this
is that it’s not about how many vinyl records you have
or how many handmade pieces of art you have hung on your walls
or even about all the scabs on your knees that you don’t complain about.
it was never about those things.
and it was never about conversations at 2am, even when it felt like it was.
and it was never about the haircut you had but for some reason that mattered.
I wish you could see
what it was about.
so that you could tell me because I still don’t know
I bought a vinyl record today from an artist i’ve never heard of in my life, but one of the songs on the vinyl was called
“you can’t roller skate in a buffalo herd”
and honestly that’s the truest thing i’ve ever heard.
think about it for a little while
I just wanted to write this for my mom
I guess I never really considered how lonely she is
I never really thought about it too much
she spent christmas alone this year
and I forgot to text her merry christmas when I woke up
she spends christmas alone every other year but it never gets easier for her
it never will
I wonder sometimes if she misses my dad as much as my dad misses her
my dad will never ever admit it
but I know he misses her
and I know she misses what they had
and I know that I do too
but it just is how it is and I forgot to tell her I loved her on christmas morning
my mom spent christmas alone this year and 2 years before
I never give her enough credit for how strong she is
I love you mom and I promise i’ll never forget to text you on christmas morning ever again
well here it is
all laid out on the table I guess
things I never said. things I need to say. things I thought and things I didnt.
I guess I need to start by saying
things haven’t been so good lately. I miss you but I know we both need this. also, that song you wrote the other day? I heard it and I loved it. just thought you should know. anyways, goodnight.
santa, I hope you aren’t mad that i have stopped writing to you. it’s not because I dont believe anymore, it’s because I hate my handwriting.
I wish I could read everyone’s mind cause then I could choose my words more carefully.
it’s 11:47 and we have been facetiming 34 minutes and 18 seconds while he makes cookies and he’s my best friend.
I guess you’ll never know how I feel outside of school and work, but maybe that’s for the best.
do you think that your dad ever gets sad that he isn’t your mom? or vice versa? I feel like that sometimes.
I just want to be as great as freddie mercury.
I swore to dom. that when we die we will take a trip to visit the greatest concert of all time. Live Aid. and i’ve never been more excited in my life.
and some pictures that mean everything and nothing all at the same time
I never thought anyone actually read my things
or cared for that matter
and I never thought in a million years that someone would do this for me
matt you made this so special for me.
you made this everything.
yeah ok it may have been just an assignment but it was just so much more.
you brought me to life and I cant thank you more.
I almost cried my eyes in front of nelson watching it.
I really wish you knew how much this meant to me and how much i really love it.
you have made this class so much better for everyone
and you have just literally made my whole year.
a little bit ago I wrote a letter to nelson in my journal saying that I wish I was somebody in this class
I wish that I could finally do something I love and do it good
and I felt like i hadn’t
and I didnt
and that I was hopeless
you made me feel like I was somebody and I just cant thank you enough
I literally just want to give you the world for doing this idek
I guess you’ll never know how much this genuinely meant to me
but I hope this helps show it a little
thank you for making my blog special matt
you’re so golden < 3
today I took my dads special coat to school
the coat he wears to work
and although he was far far away today
I knew he didn’t like me wearing his coat
cause he was cold up there in space
up there in the stars cleaning the moon so we all have something to wish for
I took his coat today and he told me without telling me
that it was ok
and I felt bad but it was ok
and my dad is brave for being up in space for so long
the commute is something else but so is he and I wish people knew what he has to do so that wolves have something to howl at, at night
I wore his coat today
because I wanted to be in space too
and I was for a second
and it made me think about how my dad feels every time he goes to work
he must really love it up there in the stars
it’s where he belongs
maybe it’s where I want to belong too.
makes me wonder if I was meant to take his coat all along
(this is cause nelson told me to and I was scared but I did it and idk about it but I want you to write one too nelson. please)